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San José del Pacífico: A Birthday Mushroom Trip
Today is 6/10/25, and I’m sitting in the little house with a courtyard that we rented in Antigua. I’ve made coffee, my hair is wrapped in a towel, and I’m listening to the rain. Volcanos sit in the distance, veiled in cloud and mist. It is the rainy season in Guatemala now. Sometimes the rain comes in sheets, sometimes it is light and close and fine. Antigua is a small city ringed by volcanoes, with cobblestone streets and colorful houses. It somehow reminds me of Cusco and S
Shikin Xu
Nov 4, 202512 min read


The Shadow of Motherhood
Motherhood is often wrapped in images of tenderness, sacrifice, and unconditional care. Yet there is another side, rarely spoken of. It...
Shikin Xu
Sep 30, 20254 min read


IUD
Before deciding to get an IUD (Intrauterine Device, a form of long-term birth control), I did a lot of preparation. I read many articles,...
Shikin Xu
Sep 15, 202515 min read


Herbal Caress
Wendy suggested that I could cleanse myself with basil. Suddenly, everything made sense. In the little shops where I often buy incense,...
Shikin Xu
Sep 9, 20256 min read


Flame’s Heart, Inhabited by a Tear
There was a flame, radiating countless lights, countless flickering sparks. She danced, leapt, and swayed without hesitation; She was...
Shikin Xu
Aug 27, 20255 min read


26/8/25 Jotting
Dust swirls slowly in the air, drifting upward like a silent flood, spiral. If one does not linger long under the sun, it is almost...
Shikin Xu
Aug 26, 20251 min read


My Notes on Traveling in Colombia
Since my friends Alma and Dani are visiting Colombia, I thought I’d share some tips and recommendations. Instead of sending bits and...
Shikin Xu
Aug 24, 20254 min read


Oyster
Oyster, raw, alive. Plump, sweet, briny, carrying the faint musk of seawater, rich as cream. Between the lips and teeth—passion, sensuality, texture. Placed on the tongue, it slides in. Cold, silken. The instant the tongue touches it, the teeth close gently, tenderly chewing. Its savor floods the mouth, and finally it is swallowed, absorbed into the body. Smooth, yielding, without resistance. That act of swallowing: desire upon desire, the moment of climax. To savor an oyster
Shikin Xu
Aug 20, 20253 min read


The Tale of a Toad
Once upon a time, in the green hills of northern Colombia, near a small, sleepy coffee town called Minca, there lived a toad. Unlike the others in his family, who could stretch their lives to five, even ten years, this toad’s life was brief and painful. Only a few months. He laid eggs obsessively, not out of joy or pure instinct, but because giving himself away was the only way he knew to feel useful. Alive. On a rainy night, with thunder murmuring in the distance, the toad s
Shikin Xu
Aug 8, 20257 min read


18/7/25 Nuquí, Chocó, Colombia
We had nothing planned for today. We woke up slowly, lazily, and had breakfast without any rush. I think I’m really, truly starting to...
Shikin Xu
Jul 23, 202511 min read


Whispers from the Sacred Valley
25/5/25 Right now, I’m sitting in a small café in this mountain city, with Negra Presentuosa by Susana Baca gently playing through my...
Shikin Xu
Jun 24, 202516 min read


15/6/25 A Wakeful Night
Late at night, I couldn’t fall asleep. Though to be honest, it isn't that late, just around eleven. Beans and I had watched Orlando , a...
Shikin Xu
Jun 16, 20255 min read


30/5/25 I am inhabited by a cry
Ever since I was little, I’ve known I was a fairy. I loved whimsical worlds. I loved dancing with the wind. I loved molding mud with my hands. I loved leaping barefoot across hillsides. I loved resting my head against the trunks of trees. I loved drawing on my own skin. I loved feeling insects crawl slowly across my palms. I loved cutting my hair however I wished, and weaving leaves into it. I was a wandering fairy, drifting wherever the wind led me, chasing after glimmers of
Shikin Xu
May 30, 20254 min read


15/5/25 Fiona, the friend who felt like we’d always known each other
Summer in Venado Tuerto On my first morning in Cusco, I had a rather emotionally intense conversation. Combined with some altitude...
Shikin Xu
May 16, 202510 min read


10/5/25 First night in Peru
I'm currently staying at my Airbnb — the kind where you share the space with the host. There's a dog in the house named Quero. He's a...
Shikin Xu
May 13, 20255 min read


3/5/25 Dripping
I like eating a cold, juicy, fresh orange in the dark, after taking a hot, steamy bath. Warm water flows gently, my toes touch the...
Shikin Xu
May 4, 20253 min read


1/5/25 Overcast
Cloudy skies. A night full of dreams. I have a slight headache. The café I wanted to go to was closed—it's feriado today, and the streets...
Shikin Xu
May 1, 20253 min read


23/4/25 A Little Story About an Alfajor
Yesterday, my dear friend Vira asked if I wanted to rehearse together, and I said yes. She took the bus, and I called an Uber. She’s the...
Shikin Xu
Apr 29, 20255 min read


14/4/25 My Breasts That Breathe With Me
There are parts of our bodies that seem to understand before we do. And I want to write about my breasts. Breasts? Yes—you read that...
Shikin Xu
Apr 21, 202516 min read


20/4/25 Easter Fragments
Just around the corner from my house, there’s a tiny café I love—cozy and green, with exposed brick walls and a quiet palette of deep...
Shikin Xu
Apr 21, 202512 min read
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